I'm confused, but I can't tell you why.
I'm dealing with something heavy, but I can't tell you why.
This morning was just about as tough as any I've had in my years of parenting, but I can't tell you why.
It's the beginning of a long and I'm betting painful process, but I can't tell you why.
It's sad, but I can't tell you why.
I can't tell you why because of the trolls that follow my every word and then turn it into something so far from reality that I have to wonder about their sanity.
I can't tell you because I have to self-censor almost everything I say and do these days, just to keep the trolls at bay.
I can't tell you because it's a problem with someone I love, and I refuse to get that person vilified by trolls because they have no life of their own and need to come and criticize what they "think" is my life.
I can't tell you, all my IRL friends and internet friends, because I'm not willing to take the chance and expose something that could hurt someone else.
I can't share something that I need help with because of the trolls.
For the first time today I thought about taking the blog private. Or taking it down. Or moving it to another platform where I can more carefully manage who can read. For right now, today, I have to censor. And it sucks more than I can begin to tell you all, because I want to reach out, but I can't. I won't.
So I'm going to ask you who know how to call or email or whatever. Because this is how it's going to be until the trolls leave, and as we all know, that's when hell freezes over, because.... well because. We all know why.
I'm frustrated and angry.
I don't want to do this.
I hate that I have to.
I hate that the trolls will just make something up and laugh about it.
I hate that there are people in this world that have to deride everyone else to build themselves up.
I hate them.
And most of all, I hate what's happening right now.
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